09th Dialogue
FALLIABLE MAN AND MYSTERY OF GOD REVEALED
My life too has been full of trivialities and tremors of the liking and the disliking like all others in life. I have been unable to remain aloof and tranquil to the situations while men and women around have demanded from me the codes of conducts, as from any other man or woman in life. No one in this world knows about the realm where I belong to the Divine. No one has ever come to know what has been going on inside the man, who looks similar to them and has been entangled in the trivialities of life. They have demanded from me, like they demand from all , attentions that a man must devote to the actions and the errors that determine the daily courses of life. I have been given tasks to perform, endowed with the responsibilities that I wished to avoid. But I have remained tranquil, hidden my nature and performed the tasks as someone hidden behind. At every moment I have confronted the choices of how to live in the world and at the same time remain distant from it. There have come moments when I have felt disturbed, experienced the burden to bear this mask. O Father of Heaven! how shall I remain tranquil? How shall I hide the mystery that I know? In choosing and acting in the world I have felt polluted: The love, that I desire from Heaven, I have been unable to transmit to life. Anger, frustration, fear have spilled on the heart. I have failed to control the eddies that have passed by as the whirls of the suffering-life. If I am Your Son, why have You created me with such human attributes, that pollute the mind and do not let Your Light be revealed , that keeps the soul undisturbed ? O Father! knowing the nature of Thy Love I wonder why have You created me as a man, who is so small, and hurled me in the eddies, where I have swirled in the current of fallibility in the will of man?
God: Man is not God. But God is reincarnated as Man. Worldly man is a peaceless existence carrying the will of man, who is a powerful existence of Man-God. Both as a man and Man-God your existence is God-Man. Remember that unless you are dealing with the existence of the man, who undergoes the experiences of the trivialities of life, you will not be able to communicate about the World of God-Man to man, who are swirling in the eddies of life. Your existence needs to face the many-faced aspects of the common human life in order to be meaningful to yourself and the world of men and women, to whom you are going to be revealed as God-Man. But know, although your existence appears as world, and every worldly existence has a worldly fate, your fate is not a worldly fate of men and women but your are God-Man.
Sometimes I have felt that my mind is so polluted that I have been unable to receive the warmth of the love that I wish to transmit to men and women. At such moments I have felt the difficulty to belief that I am Thy Son. If I am Thy Son, why have I felt anger, frustration, liking and disliking for the situations of life that I have faced ?
God: Know yourself as a man who is worldly and at the same time Divine. Knowing your worldly nature perform the tasks that are bestowed on you as the man of the world and remain calm. When the world will be imposing upon you the tasks that will hinder you to serve the Divine meaning , be assured that the Divine meaning will be established by the Will of God.
How shall I be able to free myself from the uncleanness of the world and bathe in the Pure Light of Your Love?
God: Know that the world is full of torment and struggle. Know yourself as the part of the suffering world. Bear in the mind that the worldly suffering is the way to move to the world where Man is God. Your feeling of being polluted or unpolluted has a worldly meaning. Know that there is nothing that can remain untouched by the conflicts and struggles of life once the thing or the being comes in form. This is what must, and what must be is what you can not avoid. Reality of the world is a peaceless work of the will. Reality must and the worldly man must work for what is worldly and not what world should not be. Bear in your mind the meaning of God-Man , who is not a work of man and the world, but of God who is not a peace or peaceless light or darkness but the power of the Divine that creates all. Your earnings for the earthly world’s purity of the love is not the earthly world’s earnings for the attention of the will that is trying to work against the reality of things. Know yourself as the matter-spirit bound man, who is God and God who is a power of a world that is beyond.
How shall I bear this will of man, that brings torments of passions, lust, desires, anger, hate and love? How shall I remain tranquil when I can not remain calm once born with flesh and blood? How shall I overcome the feeling of despair against my existence that creates turbidities of feelings that seem to be beyond my own control? The instincts operate without my willing or not; the desires flare up without giving warnings to the mind. How shall I overcome myself and attain self-control?
God: Do not leave yourself the doubt that you are not a man but God-Man. Once you know that your life is destined to be the way it is and emanent from God, you will not repent the way you seem to repent. Your repentance is a formless world’s faceless man’s understanding of himself as a man of the world, but not his understanding of Himself as God. You must not repent for what you do. You must leave your will to God and act . Bear that your will is not of a man, but God-Man is your Will.
I have felt tormented by the human will, that has distracted me from the light that I have seen beyond. I have wished to remain submerged in the Great Light, that You are. I have repented for this separation from the Divine Home. When you have sent me to the suffering world to feel pain, anxieties, storms of passions and desires, you have a purpose, I know. O Father ! how shall I go to the men and the women and tell them that through this polluted river, that fills my will, flows the river that is Your Home ?
God: God-Man is a peace. This peace is not what man believes it to be. God-Man is a peace that disturbs the world seeking worldly meaning and awakens the world to the understanding of the Divine. Your worldly existence is not worldly peaceful or peaceless motion of the will. Your worldly existence is Man-God’s meaningful work of the Will of God. Know yourself as the river from where everything evolve. Turn yourself away from the motion of the worldly man’s willing and not-willing and deliver yourself to the meaning of the motion that is God. Know yourself as the meaning of the world, and realize your work as the work of a man, who is only knowable beyond the world, that is known.
O Father! with my human will I have been unable to grasp the meaning for which I seem to exist. The language seems to have fallen in a dichotomy with itself: The meaning has turned meaningless. How shall I be able to make the messages meaningful to the men and women, who do not know You and have not experienced the world, that I know?
God: God-Man is the meaning of the world. Your existence as the man is the meaning that every human being must understand. Your will is a power that manifests as a man and your will decides upon the meaning that is human. Know your meaning as God-Man and the meaning of your existence as the Will and Work of God. Knowing yourself as God remain attuned to the will that belongs to God-Man. Know yourself as God-Man and move and act as known and understood by man and remain undisturbed. You are working for the Divine world and work for the knowledge that is not known. Know the worldly man’s feelings by living like them, and decide about the language that your worldly existence may find in the words of the worldly women and men, who are not you but who are aspects of you, who is the faceless and formless world’s meaning as I and You.
Lead my soul the way you wish to lead. Let Thy Words penetrate the suffering world through the words that I create. O Father of Heaven! let Thy Words be the way!
